It's like waking up without an alarm clock.

There is something innocent, something natural, and something amazing about reacting to the morning in a different way. That's what this feeling is.

I suppose it could be considered a lack of feeling, but internally that's not what it is. It's an absolute tranquility with the way things work. It's a peace of mind I have struggled to find for the past year. It's a beauty that I can't put to words.

It's wonderful.

I don't need the inconsistency, nor do I want it.

I have done so well without it.

I am doing so well without it.

This is my release. This is me, Stephanie Kate, letting it go and not doing it because I feel helpless. I'm letting go because it's what I want. I don't want the burden of walking on my own eggshells.

I don't want the burden of poisoning those around me.

So I'm letting go. I have realized who I want around and who I'm better off without. I will not make an effort. I will continue to be unfazed by petty attempts to bring me down. But most of all , I will continue to enjoy things. I will continue to make the people around me happy because I know that it's actually possible to make these people happy.

The impossible and frustrating people have been released. The ones who aren't afraid to reciprocate feelings and thoughts and raw, honest, human emotion are the ones who are staying.

So, to those I no longer wish to make an effort with, goodbye.

Goodbye and good night and I wish you the best of luck in figuring out how to make yourself happy because it is no longer something I want to do.