tequila swimmin' in your veins say yeahhh and write and some shit.

i've got words. i promise.

today is valentine's day, isn't it? my dad (as per usual) told me his ideas for what he wanted to do for my mom. my parents disgust me with how fucking cute they are sometimes. i mean, really. my mother's face just glowed when she showed me the flowers i had already seen. sometimes i think they're fifteen and hormonal.

anyway!

this heart thing i've got going on right now is getting a little ridiculous (and by a little i really mean a lot). i've got a handful of doctors all telling me a handful of conflicting things and not one of them is a cardiologist. i went to get a referral to a cardiologist but just getting the referral to get my heart monitor took two months.

i'm telling you, at the rate everything is going my heart is going to stop before anyone knows what the hell is going on.

which leads me to my next point...

wait.

no. nevermind. i won't go there just yet.

blegh. i was going to write and bitch about the usual business but i'm not really feeling up to it. in all honesty, my heart is hurting really bad and i've been sexiled without shoes so i'm pretty much just sitting and drinking and wasting time before i have to go to work in the morning. perhaps i'll go kill some zombies. i've found video games to be very...helpful...lately.

don't ask cos i don't want to tell.

yeah, so i give up on this writing thing. maybe i'll go work on my poem that's due in two days.

maybe i'll post it if i like it.

oh, decisions...